To be blunt, I left Columbus for the summer to get away from the pettiness that inevitably comes with living in a small town. I came to Colorado Springs, a city of 500,000, hoping to find something of the anonymity I felt in London, where I could walk down the street and not feel strangers' eyes on me, judging me. Instead, as I stroll through the streets of Colorado Springs, I feel even more self-conscious than I did in Columbus. Colorado Springs is like a giant suburb without a city to make it legitimate.
When I first got here, all I could see were the mountains. To a girl from the midwest, waking up every morning to look out at mountains was like waking up in a fairy tale. Then one day fog hid Pikes Peak and the surrounding mountains, and I saw Colorado Springs for what it really is: a silly little town with a couple squatty little buildings.
Maybe it's being alone a lot of my free time, but I still feel a little like an outsider, and that's kind of given me a negative opinion of things. And I guess I just need to vent a little, so definitely take things I wrote with a grain of salt. Most people are nice.
Whew.
I feel a little better.
And now random thoughts.
I listened to Bright Eyes for the first time in a while today. That guy is the definition of emo.
It takes being away from someone for a long period of time, thinking you're going to see them in a few days, and then finding out they're not coming to realize how much you can't live without them.
That's not true. I've known it for a while.
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